Blessed!

What a day! It started out nervously, anxious, wondering. What would he be like? Would he be mean? Resentful? Unforgiving? Holding a grudge? Nope! None of those! He was perfect! Let me down easy for the not so good stuff, cheered me on for the great stuff, even was very personable, forgiving, no grudge, he was understanding, smart, nice, friendly, happy, healthy, open minded, lovable… he was perfect.

When I was 17, I got pregnant. Couldn’t have a baby and couldn’t have an abortion. Let’s face it, I was barely done high school. I knew it would be a hard road. Some people called me selfish. Some people called me mean names. I didn’t care, for once in my life I was going to do the right thing. My parents cried and yelled at me. It was hard telling my grandparents. They were disappointed. One side of the family told me “we will share the responsibility while you go to college” his parents said “we will pay for the abortion.” I didn’t want to do what they said, I figured, he’s got half of me in him, he’s got to be somewhat cool. I decided to give him up for adoption, there’s got to be plenty of people out there who would LOVE to have a baby! I decided to use Catholic Social Services and planned out his life for him. Simple demands that I hoped they would follow. (Open to being catholic, open to college education, able to have siblings, grandparents, not biologically able to have children on their own… etc.) I thought they were reasonable demands and not to far fetched. I wouldn’t know if they followed them anyway, but it was nice to know it was out there.

Every year on July 8th, I would say a silent prayer for his safety, and wish him a happy birthday and hope that he was in a good space, he was. In time, we began to talk on the phone, (when he was 30, he came looking for me and found me, I agreed to start talking) he seemed to be well enough, a smart man. I wanted to wait until he was ready to meet me in person. Today was that day! He was so awesome! He’s cute, smart, and the perfect package for some cute, awesome woman (yes, he’s looking). Such a good man, I am so blessed, thankful, grateful, and happy he was raised right! Oh! by a Ukrainian couple! English is his second language! Isn’t that awesome too?????

Have a fantastic night! I know I will!!!

2 thoughts on “Blessed!”

  1. I’m so glad you got to meet him. It makes my heart happy for you and for Ash to meet her big brother!!

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