No, this isn’t a commercial for Heinz ketchup. It’s getting hard to hope and what I am hoping for isn’t coming true. People think teachers are patient. I don’t consider myself patient at all. My dad and mom always taught me that if I wanted something, work for it until it comes true. I am also a very resourceful girl. If I want something, or need something done, I will do it. Whatever it takes. That’s when it gets me in trouble, I just can’t seem to wait and hope for it to happen on its own, I always have to put my two cents in and try to force it NOW. I am NOT a patient teacher.
I am starting to think part of the problem is what I am hoping for. I think I want it but the more I think about it, it just might not be what I want. I imagine it coming true and I think, na, I don’t want to do that again. The phrase, “Been there, done that” comes to mind. I want to add, “not again.”
I don’t know if you can feel it, but I am talking in circles trying not to say what I want to say. I just don’t want it out there yet, because maybe it will happen and I am not ready for it. The universe is definitely taking me for a ride. I can feel this incredible energy around me almost everyday now. I have been rebuilding myself and I can seriously feel it. My light is being exposed again, you know, that high on life thing. I will just stick with it and see what happens I guess. Very hard for me to do. Anyway, thanks for reading my ramblings. Have a great night!
joyce