Guilt, it’s not a good thing. It’s a bad feeling that you’ve done something wrong. Sometimes it causes us remorse and a desire to fix it, which is good, but how about the times when you feel guilty but really didn’t do anything wrong? I don’t get it, where did I learn that from?
Take for example, my day today. I have hurt my foot, I really don’t know exactly what happened but I can barely walk on it. I have pinpointed the pain to my Achilles tendon. I am thinking I just strained it somehow, maybe with the million miles I walked at the beach this past week. And, instead of stopping and taking it easy, I kept going. Kept exercising, kept walking, just wouldn’t stop. Now I’m in trouble, I can’t move. I’m stuck. Thankful for my husband who is taking excellent care of me, wrapping it in a cold compress, ordering me to elevate, and just generally doing more than his share to help me.
This morning when I slept in late, my foot feeling better from all the attention it had last night, it was cloudy and even drizzling outside. I thought, great! Inside day! But now that the sun is shining, I feel guilty for not going outside! Why? I didn’t do anything wrong! I’m forcing myself to get over it while fighting the paper war in my office.
Guilt is like regret in the present. When I feel guilty for a long period of time (usually for not doing enough chores!) I sometimes get depressed. I don’t like depression. It’s mean. Makes me think I am not needed, nothing I do is right, and it’s hard to lift yourself out of it, but that is the only cure. No one can tell you to “snap out of it!” You just have to lift up and out. My cure for these moods is to do something. Even with my foot bothering me I planted myself in my office to clean up, shred papers, well, you know the drill. Three bags of trash so far and yes, I am feeling better already! What makes you get out of a slump?
Summer is almost ending for me so school will be the official end of my slump, I won’t have any time to feel guilt, depression or a slump. Hope my foot feels better soon because I have a lot of work to do yet!
Shout out to my husband for taking such good care of my foot, I love you babe.