So, it has started. The Holidays. The seasons. Leaves are turning colors, the air is getting cold, we are gaining an hour of sleep tonight. I am getting better at my lesson plans (finishing in less than 3 hours), traffic is more on the road, more people have already started filling the stores, Black Friday ads are showing already. I knew as soon as Halloween was done, time would speed up considerably, and it has. It’s kind of exciting. I have already bought a few Christmas presents. I am graduating to cash for most people on my list though.
I know I am going to miss my brother coming over. Still missing him, I think I had a dream about him last night. I’m not a dreamer. I don’t remember them. I remember talking to him in my thoughts, I was asking him a question and he went to respond to me but then I lost it. The image and exchange just left my head. I tried to get it back but couldn’t. How is the world still going on with so many people missing?
So many things are changing. Someone once told me, “The only thing you can count on to change is change itself.” I don’t know who or where it was said to me but I remember that. I don’t like change, I want everything to stay the same, or get better. Getting better I can deal with. I think I may start buying lottery tickets. Just so I can pay my credit cards off. It seems to take forever, but I did have some awesome memories with the experiences that those credit cards bought, mostly trips. It was totally worth it, so I’ll just pay them slowly but surely. Maybe I’ll just buy more trips, I actually almost booked a trip to Iceland the other day, but stopped myself because I wasn’t sure if I could be off for the dates I chose. I should just do it, Nike says so, maybe I will.
I hope I’ll be able to relax a bit over these holidays and take it all in, you know, remember better. Every minute I try to etch in my mind.