Motivation…

A reason to be compelled to complete a task. Sometimes I have it, sometimes I don’t. I wish I could buy it and take it like a pill. But even if that could happen, who’s to say I would do what specific task I was after?

When lesson plans are due, my motivation is that I want to know what I am doing that week, day or month, and I don’t want to get in trouble for not doing them! I don’t want to be in trouble, I want to do everything right.

Exercise. I want to be healthy and look good. I don’t know why but I don’t want to go to the gym. When we are done, I can’t understand why I didn’t want to go in the first place! I feel so much better when we are done! Maybe it’s just the time I get to spend talking with my good friend, Kathy. I like her. She motivates me and hopefully I motivate her too.

When I was younger, I remember having so much drive I could barely stop for a second. I held down three jobs, went to night school and still kept my head above water, no problem. Now, as I am growing older, my motivation is to be able to relax. Finish what I HAVE to do, then relax. Even when I lived in Hawaii, my down time was tearing up the town of Waikiki.

Clean the house. Organize the home office. This is what I am constantly searching for motivation to complete. Maybe I need to find a better reason than “it will be done and I won’t have to do it” or “it looks great and I can find everything!”

When I was a single mom, my motivation was my beautiful daughter Ashley. I wanted her to have everything and lack nothing. Now, she is a grown woman and I still have trouble letting her go. She has moved out and if it wasn’t for my mom downstairs, my nest would be completely empty!

Well, now that I have remembered everything I should be doing, I must close because for some silly reason, I feel motivated to clean up and organize this office!

Motivation. I need more. My tank is slowing leaking…